Been super frazzled, super busy, in a good way mostly, the wins keep rolling in faster than the losses but that does not deminish the pain of those losses and in a way the wins serve to accentuate the losses. The wins have mostly been in the business world yet the losses are those that are so deep inside to my core being that I can’t even write this now without weeping. Pure agony and I’m still at a loss as to why. Yeah, it’s no secret even to me that I’m not a typical example of the model dad, anyone knows that but I am at least a loving, supportive man as those who know me will testify to I’m quite sure so I sit here with this huge hole in my chest where my heart was ripped out still in some form of shock that I doubt I’ll ever recover from…I’m now working about a mile from where they last lived together in Irvine and drive by it every day and I get a feeling like a knife being twisted in my chest….I’ve had to pull over to compose myself before walking into the office…really sucks. So this song above has given me some comfort in all of this mess.